Gurr

Well it is official, I hate life.  I should go emo or something.  Maybe goth, thiat  might be kinda cool.  But I won't because as anyone who knows me at all is aware of I love color waaaaaaay to much to giv eit up.  Plus people who are like that, all dark and gloomy, get on my nerves. 

want to know the reason for my forray into teenage angst?  My school.  I hate it so entirely I almost just want to run away to y cousin's house and go to her school.  Then I could just stay with her and her friends.  That'd be cool, but I can't because if you are lin honors classes, they don't transfer over if you move schools.  Which sucks, big time, since I have been in honors classes since 7th grade and have advanced math classes. 

I read a fanfiction about a popular guy in a show who got thrown out of the "in croud" the author's portrayal of his thought on the matter seemed very realistic to me.  The last sentence was "are all nerds as close as those three friends?" my answer was an immedite yes, for if we do not stick together, we get picked on alone.  I will be a nerd for my whole life, I have no overwhelming desire to ever become "popular."  Popular people are only truly happy when they are was shallow as a puddle in the middle of the Shara Desert.  Meaning that they have very little personality to speak of if it revolves around anything but the newest fashion trends.  I perfer my real friends to some "croud" that will turn on me if I dress like a total freak.  Why did I get into this?  Well whatever. 

ohh before I forget, please excuse my horible use of nasty swear word in the last post, but I was a very unhappy camper last night.  So please forgive me.  Those words were unnecisarily vulgar and I had no right to use them.  I promised myself I would only use those words when I was exceedingly pissed off.  Well that was last night.  Spring break is so totally not long enough.

Peace love and all that jazz
Zarina