So I'm laying in bed trying to fall asleep. I suddenly realized that I am totally useless. All I do is geek around on my computer or ipad. I have no motivation. I don't know what I want to do with my life at all.
Also I feel fat. I never do anything, like at all. Again with the motivation thing. I eat too much and I feel so unhealthy. There really isn't anything that I can do though. I can't run, my boobs pretty much prevent that. I weigh more than my mother, which is a truly depressing thought in itself. If I compare myself to almost everybody I know I'm very nearly morbidly obese. I hate feeling this way and I know that I shouldn't compare myself to anybody else and all of those other cliches that people spout to make others feel better,but I'm so tired of this. I hate feeling like this, I hate feeling like I'm not good enough. Great, now I'm crying. I DON'T WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY, GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!! GOD DAMN IT I'M GOOD ENOUGH, I AM.
Why do people call me beautiful? I have, like, twice in my life ever felt pretty.
I am so so sorry but I just had to let this out. I'm sorry.
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